Porn and Body Image!!!

Well im really confused with my body!! I hate my body! I hate being fat! I hate being fat to the point i have to wear a shirt when i asleep. Why am i fat?! Why cant i be skinny!!! Aaah! I know that it is a body image thing and God can work with it!!! I want to not worry about it and I want to feel that God and someone will love me me regardless of my weight.

I guess a big influence on me about my image is from my family, friends and the media. PEople always tell me that im fat!!! and that i need to loose weight!! AAAAH! I hate people and their look for appearance!! CAN SOMEONE COMMENT ON THIS!!!

Porn, ha porn. I have seen porn!! It is weird to say that i have! I mean, you Micaela will think that im weird and well i am willing to trust that you wont say that I have. uhm i dont think that i have an addiction problem with porn but i will say that I do watch it as a little move to fantasy world! LOL! I know that god will work with me on this to eventually stop it!!

THANKS FOR LISTENING!!!

TO DRINK OR NOT TO DRINK

TO DRINK OR NOT TO DRINK. THAT IS THE QUESTION THAT THOUSANDS OF APU STUDENTS ASK THEMSELVES. I MEAN, COLLEGE, TEENAGERS, FEELING COOL, PEER PRESSURE, ARE ALL FACTORS IN DETERMINING WHAT YOU DECIDE ABOUT DRINKING. IS IT WRONG? WHO KNOWS. I MEAN IF YOU BECOME AN ALCOHOLIC THEN MAYE IT IS WRONG AND YOU HAVE TO ADMIT TO THAT. BUT IS SOCIAL DRINKING REASONABLY FINE? I MEAN WOULDNT IT BE JUST LIKE A COKE WITH A LITTLE BUZZ AFTERWARDS. iT ALLOWS PEOPLE TO FORGET ABOUT THE ISSUES THAT TEHY HAVE ON A REGULAR DAY AND IT MAKES YOU COOL. BUT WHAT DOES THE CHRISTIAN FAITH SAY ABOUT THIS? IS IT BAD? IS IT GOOD? FROM WHAT I READ ABOUT THE ISSUE ON THE BIBLE, I KNMOW THAT IT LITERALLY SAYS DRUNKENESS IS BAD!!!! WELL IS DRINKING JUST TO BE SOCIAL OK? JESUS TURNED WATER INTO WINE?
THE NEXT ISSUE YOU HAVE WITH THIS IS, IF YOUR UNDER THE LEGAL AGE IN THE UNITED STATES OF 21 AND YOU DRINK, IS IT BAD? OBVIOUSLY IT IS CAUSE ITS BREAKING THE LAW. BUT IF YOU GO TO MEXICO OR EUROPE, THE AGE LIMIT IS 18. SO DOES THAT CONSTITUTE ME GOING OVER THERE AND DRINKING? DOES IT REALLY MATTER WHAT AGE YOU ARE AS LONG AS YOU RESPONSIBLE?

THESE ARE SOME OF THE QUESTIONS THAT I AHVE IN FROMT OF ME. CAN ANYONE ANSWE THEM?

6 Things I Would Like To ACCOMPLISH While At APU:

1) Become a well known leader. I want to be involved in various organizations and clubs and become a well known member of APU life. I do look forward to running for ASB president when the time comes.
2) Be better with GOD!! I want to allow GOd to be part of my life and not allow for the devil to be part of my life.
3) I want to study abroad in Mexico and do some mission work. I want to be involved in bringing people GOd whenever that is possible.
4) I want to be a very socail person. I want to get to know people and become good friends with them.
5) I want to develop my academics to pe me and to allow me to get good grades.
6) I want to be an RA and help people cuase I love working with people who are new at situations.